Treasuring Christ In The Midst of Motherhood

Your love is without limit, Your love is constant
Your love goes on forever, Your love is endless
Your love is overwhelming, I can't contain it

Endless- Reckless Love {Cory Asbury}

I would be utterly lying to you if I did not say I have not had this album on repeat since it came out, each and every song holds something and just strengthens the relationship I have with God. And those country influences sure bring a spark to the worship. Cory Asbury has written a wonderfully, raw and honest album and I cannot urge you enough to get a copy for yourself, heck everyone you know because it is just superb. {Koorong}

One of the songs in particular "Endless" have been on my mind more than the others. For me personally I think it is in connection to how much God loves me and how much His love for me reaches, which reflects on how much I as a mother, love Phoebe and bebe #2 due very soon. I love how the lyrics say that God's love for us is so endless, without limits and constant even when we do not feel like we deserve it or need it, He never ever stops loving us. His love for us is so overwhelming that we cannot even begin to understand or contain it. It just magnifies in my own heart, how much I am valued, loved and treasured as His daughter but also makes me thankful for the blessings that He has given me, that is the amazing man by my side on this journey, my husband but also the two little ones that I never even imagined would be a part of this life. And also how much He loves them and the blessings He has already bestowed on their lives and the many more to come along in their own stories. 

I won't lie and say that the past few months have been a struggle for me with Phoebe already hitting that stage of terrible two's and just challenging me to the core, at times it has been hard for me as her mother but also personally to cover myself in patience and to not let all the emotions and sleep deprivation get the better or me. At times I find myself in quick tears of frustration and immediately lash out on myself mentally with non encouraging words after an episode of just pure rawness with Phoebe and in those moments even though they are fleeting and for a second I battle with myself to not let them define me. I have been constantly aware of trying to strengthen my relationship with God and in return strengthen my character and my faith so I can let all the stresses of motherhood just roll right over myself, it is something I want to continue throughout the year not only for myself but to be faith-ready to encourage my daughters on their own journey. 

Over Christmas I knew all I wanted was to be knee deep in the word of God so I spoilt myself with some new books with words of encouragement and faith. I plan to read them everyday, well at least a chapter a day and to just have that one on one time with God that my heart seeks. I want to continue to add to the pile of books as I finish them so I am forever on track with keeping that connection with God and to stay focused. But it is very hard to find time to have that quiet time with a toddler literally climbing all over you and the minute they are actually down for a nap you end up cleaning the house or just sleeping but I find time even if it is just an half an hour or if I only get to read a paragraph, it all counts for how much goodness and guidance I receive out of it. I encourage you to find the time for just yourself and that special time of reflection with God, we really cannot rely on ourselves for all the strength and never ending love to fuel through the motherhood journey, we need God right there beside us because He is our greatest strength.

I chose some key words that I connected to for this year and I plan on really focusing on them and etching them into all that this year will bring. The words are "PATIENCE, STRENGTH AND VALUE/SELF WORTH". Patience, because as I say motherhood has been testing me to the limits and I know it is only going to get harder for me in the new few months and just being patient in general for life, it is very hard for me to just sit & wait for things to unfold so that is something I need to work on and to put my faith in God. Strength, is tied into all of that but emotionally and physically to be stronger as a mum, as myself and my relationship with God. And value/self worth is about me focusing on how much I am treasured and loved by God, to be thankful for all that He has done and the blessings to come, to not be define by my failures and to find my own self worth. 

I recently finished one of my books and it was a very tiny one but I drew so much out of it so here is a few things that I connected with that I think every mother should hold onto. The book is "Treasuring Christ - When Your Hands Are Full" by Gloria Furman.

"a mother who has been born again to a living hope through the resurrection of Christ has an inheritance that is imperishable, undefiled and unfading, kept in heaven for her"

"We need other Christian women in our lives to help us grasp how wide, how long, how high and how deep is the love of Jesus"

"The world is brimming over with false hope and nearsighted dreams for motherhood, but Jesus endures forever, Jesus is sufficient"

"We miss the rising sun that signals another day of grace in which God has entrusted us with nurturing his little images bearers to love and honour him first and foremost and forever"

"believe God is with you in your good work of mothering. But since "the sufferings of this present time are not worth comparing with the glory that is to be revealed to us" then let us not fix our eyes on these temporary pains but on Christ. Respond to Gods call to worship throughout your days and nights, serving and nurturing helpless little ones and worshiping the author of life"

"too often we settle for throwing cliche glow sticks into the darkness of our doubts. And their light and comfort quickly fade. Perhaps the scariest feelings in the midst of these frustrations come from one particular dark thought. It's a life that we're tempted to believe. This idea has more to do with karma than with grace: we suspect that however the day went is how God feels about us"

"your future includes manna. It will come. There is no sense devising future scenarios now because God will do more than you anticipate. When you understand God's plan to give future grace, you have access to what is arguable God's most potent salve against worry and fear" Ed Welch

"your worst days are never so bad that you are beyond the reach of God's grace. And your best days are never so good that you are beyond the need of God's grace" Jerry Bridges

"I remember that motherhood is not a blessing given to me because I deserve it. It isn't a reward for my good deeds or (as some might suggest) a sentencing for my bad deeds. God made me a mother because he jealously and rightly desires praise for his own name, and this is how he saw fit to do it. God aims to glorify himself through our family, and we get to be carried along by his grace. He has created these children, in these circumstances, for such a time as this"

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