I have been putting off writing this blog post, not because I am lazy or have nothing to write. I think I have been putting it off because the events that happened over the weekend have thrown me into an anxious pit.
On Saturday I was eager to just have a nice day out with a close friend, just to have a bit of a break so we decided to get some formula for Zoey to have because I barely had any expressed breastmilk in the freezer. In the minutes that she drank the formula she did a huge vomit which according to Benjamin went everywhere and she than broke out in a nasty rash all over her body which by the time I got home became welts. The minute I got in the door she did another massive vomit and did not look happy, then her lips and tongue went blue and it was at this point we decided to race to emergency. I honestly wish we acted sooner because that car ride was long in our minds (it was only five minutes or something like that) but the situation could of been so much more dire and my mama heart is just in a deepened sadness thinking of what could of happened. They got her into emergency immediately and they gave her some steroids to help with the rash, checked her tongue for any swelling and then we had to stay for several hours so they could keep a close eye on her. I am so so thankful that we had my friend staying to watch Rey because I think having Rey in emergency would of been insanely stressful for her and us.
We were there for a few hours and slowly her rash started going away and she starting to look much more happier by each passing hour, she was cooing and squealing away by the time we got told to go home. The doctors say that she had an allergic reaction to the formula, which was a cow’s milk based one, funnily enough it was the same formula we used with Rey so we did not even expect this to happen. Zoey has her six month needles this week so I am eager to see what our next steps are with this because it is all so new to me. I am just so thankful that she is okay and despite being super backed up, she is her usual happy self again. She is getting extra cuddles and kisses from both of us and I never ever want to see either of my babes in hospital again.
So venturing back to the usual six month milestones, Zoey has entered into the world of solids this month, we have been giving her the usual pureed baby pouches that we gave Rey, mostly the fruit and veg ones because “hello wee vegan baby”. Zoey gets so so excited when she sees me in the kitchen, she watches me like a hawk while I am preparing her food and once she spots me she excitedly rocks back and forth in anticipation. In the past few weeks I have seen her swallowing and tongue skills progress so much, when we started her on solids that tongue reflex would just push everything back out again which was messy af but now she swallows her food brilliantly and even bites down on the spoon! (teething yayy) I am keen to start her on the baby led weaning journey and hopefully she is not allergic to anything else because I would not cope if anything bad happens again. We are still breastfeeding but I suspect that she is teething more so than last month because now she tugs and bites which is so not in my favour and my poor nips are in agony, the pain is so different to those first few days of starting to breastfeed, it is a much more deeper pain and I just hope it heals because each feed is just so painful for me.
Zoey is still co sleeping with me in the bed and after we get back from a little family trip we will be attempting to sleep train her in the crib. Her crib is in our bedroom at the moment, I really want to start letting her have her day naps in there but it is so bloody bright that I am afraid that she will just wake up immediately. I love and hate that she still has her naps in my arms, yes I want to do things but then I look down and see her sweet face and how content she is, I am like “kid, you can sleep in my arms forever”. I honestly do not remember how to sleep train and am half considering hiring a sleep consultant just so it is laid out for me, hell I do not even know Zoey’s actual sleep schedule because life with two kids is way different than just one and my attention is divided. I do know that Zoey will benefit greatly from a bedtime routine because right now she does not have one because I am so unsure how to juggle two kids at bedtime and half the time we actually want to do it Zoey is already overtired and grumpy. Sometimes she does sleep in four hour blocks at night with one or two feeds and than other times she is up every two hours or something which is hellish. She has recently started rolling over in her sleep which is highly not fun, she sleeps on her stomach for a little bit but the paranoid mother I am does not let her do it for too long because our mattress is not very hard. I do not know which positions she actually likes sleeping in so I usually place her on her side when putting her to bed but she does tend to roll onto her back and just stretch her limbs all over the place. She does this insanely adorable thing when she wakes, once she has noticed me asleep or have my eyes closed she kicks me which her tiny feet or wacks me with her hand. I say it’s adorable in the lightest of terms.
As for milestones, Zoey is working on mastering sitting up by herself, if she leans too far in one direction she falls over and probably will faceplant. She loves grabbing things nearby and if she spies something she fancies she will try to get to it one way or another. Speaking of getting places, she rolls everywhere these days, she has not crawled in a straight line yet haha she much rather prefers to just roll about, but oddly enough she can turn in a circle if she chooses. Zoey is extremely vocal these days, she adores squealing and cooing all over the place, her baby babble is so adorable and I have to wonder what her first word will be. She loves watching her sister be wild all over the place and has the sweetest smiles for Dakota which of course I love, the other day she grabbed onto her fur and looked at me with the most innocent face every that looked like she was questioning me if this was alright, poor Dakota did not think it was much fun though. Some of Zoey’s favourite things at the moment would be her new found ability to thrash toys around and than throw them, she likes watching the tv (yayy..) and she simply adores bath time although not when her eager sister decides to splash water on her face.
As for me, it has been six months since my repeat c-section and I am finally starting to feel back to my pre pregnancy self, I am still not at my desired weight goal but slowly working towards it. I have started to work out again when I find the time which is barely anything because when I do Phoebe thinks it is funny to jump on me or crawl under me which is so not ideal. I will admit I am loving my arse at the moment haha! to put it any bluntly, it is so much more toned than it was a few months back and I am gaining confidence in my body once again which makes me feel so much more happier about things. It is still a long journey to go on and I hope I can reach my goals soon. My c-section scar has healed nicely although it does still hurt every now and again if I do push my body to hard during a workout. I have started to hire books from the library again, I rarely find time to read and most of it happens while Zoey is asleep in my arms but it feels so good to be able to escape reality for a little bit and dwell in the land of books once again, I keep hiring more books than I can actually keep up with and keep putting myself in a deep pile of deadlines on these hired goods. I also bought some watercolour paints and every blue moon I dabble in the arts for a little bit which is like half an hour of just creative freedom. It all just feels good and I am glad I am getting back into touch with myself and what I love.
Well that is it really, I am already planning Zoey’s first birthday and am excited for how that will turn out because once Christmas is over the first few months of the year just fly by so I would like to be more prepared this time around.
Hope you enjoyed this wee update guys and thank you so much for the love & support